facing the music

i have been feeling so many things, jumping off of this cliff... and i still haven't landed. but i have been living in the songs, getting them out of my mouth and into computer files, listening to them back, and feeling relieved: i think i made the right decision.

of the 17 new songs there are seven that i feel sure of no matter who is listening... for the rest, there is a lot of doubt in me, along the lines of 'will the listener get what i'm trying to express here?' and more importantly 'is this really what i want to say?'

i want to find the place in me that i can trust; that voice that knows the answers that i look to others for. i think that it is there and speaks to me, but i haven't been a very good listener.

Lauren Hoffman